the waiting game

havent posted in a bit, reason being that not much is going on! i send out my resumes on a continual basis, but nothing concrete has come from that yet, so no news to report there.

on one level i have a sense of let down. by that i mean that i feel like the past few months i have been climbing an uphill battle-health,job,school,etc. at this point i have reached the crest (all the medical tests are over and the pressure is off for baby making, i've completed my coursework and taken the national certification test)and now i'm on the downword slope waiting for the next thing to start rising again.

i think this is a waiting and resting time for whatever is next to come. a popular passage in the Bible, Isaiah 40:31, fits so timely in my life right now "those who wait on the Lord will renew their strength".

i have a hard time just resting. one time for our wedding anniversary chris and i took a tubing ride down the Guadalupe river. i'll never forget that. there i was in the midst of some beautiful nature, gliding down the river on an innertube, and yet i was having a hard time just letting go and relaxing. i kept thinking "theres stuff to do and here i am doing nothing!"

so my prayer right now is not to get frustrated with the waiting, but to see it as a gift and enjoy this moment of rest while it is here. let myself get renewed before the next thing comes. i think we all can do that in some form or another in our lives!