thinking out loud

i have been told repeatedly over the years that when a person is in the midst of God's work that the devil will come and attack because he doesnt want anyone to succeed. well, i feel like i am an attack victim.

2 weeks ago i signed up for a woman's bible study at my church. i am very excited about it and have already gotten alot out of the 2 sessions we've had. i can see changes i want to make in myself and my family. also my small group will be starting a woman's group study that i am also excited about. i've also been attending the tuesday prayer nights at our church which have been very dynamic. things are looking up and i'm feeling pretty good.

then friday i find out that what i thought was our financial security will be changing in a matter of months. and sunday caitlin comes down with a fever that just won't seem to go away after 3 days.

so of course you know what that means: come summer we'll be homeless, living under the bridge . and i've already picked out my shopping cart with extra room for my sick baby!

nah, not really (God willing). but in the middle of the night lately thats what seems like truth.

i'm trying to stay positive. i know the doctor will figure out whats wrong with caitlin and get that resolved. ultimately i know that God is our provider and we will be taken care of financially. i know that. but right now i'm just struggling and the last thing i want is to let the enemy win.