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3 days left!

this is the time when i need to bank on my sleep since i know it will be scarce in a few days. unfortunately that isn't happening...my mind is racing all night. between that, potty breaks, and sore body i havent had a sound full nights sleep in over a week. i am just so nervous and honestly scared.

i think about what an amazing journey this has been. from trying for several years to get pregnant before seeing the fertility doctor who said i wouldn't be able to conceive on my own but needed drugs to do so and us saying if its meant to be it will be, to being on vacation literally a day before finding out i was pregnant and my friend says to me "are you sure you are ok? you don't look so well" and i said i was just tired from the fun time i had on my trip (when in reality at that point i was already 5 wks pregnant), to taking the preg. tests once i got back and calling my best friend asking her if 3 positives really meant i was pregnant?! then sitting on my bedroom floor crying my eyes out from happiness and shock, to going to Yamaha and telling Chris he was gonna be a father and at first he thought someone had died cause i was so upset!, then hearing our baby's heartbeat for the first time making the whole thing very real, to the first ultrasound when we found out she was a girl then debating on how her name should be spelled ;), then all the blood sugar issues, preterm labor stuff and bedrest, to now where its finally time to meet this priceless life inside me in just few more days. its been one heck of a ride.